Angel Imani Chapman
I never thought or
could ever imagine writing you a letter like this smfh my angel my babygirl.2 days ago would have been your first christmas.I havent and cant stop thinking about you ????????????
I love you and miss you so much i would give anything to hold you, kiss you and just hear you say daddy,Mentally ive been so depressed hurt & messed up from losing you that I no longer know what living life is or what it means.I lost myself along the way,i started not to care about the things that once made me happy.I really hate myself for being away from you while you were growing in mommy's belly
IF you needed anyone at the time of you growing it was me and i failed you.Everytime called you mom you would ball up like to say hey pops when you coming home and i would just smile and get of the phone and lock in my cell smile and hurt that i wasnt there ????????????
Baby ive been beating by police,
Lied too,lied on, told I was a danger to ppl and had 4 surgeries but nth hurt more then not knowing if i would be home to see you born and cut your cord just to lose you.
iam so sorry baby i really do hate myself for leaving you for not being with you everyday. I was part of the stress your mom had while carrying you but there was alot of funny things going on while I was away smfh and i wish everybody could see what i see ???????????? and see the truth about it
There's not a day that goes by that i dont think of you or talk about you
There are so many things I want and need to say to you.
IF I didn't have her your sister i would be right with you my ashes
Next to your my heart next to yours and mind ????????????
i layed in that hospital bed for days just waiting to be with you & your grandpa i layed in that bed seeing your face smiling & all i could do was hurt cry and beg God too please not let anybody so i had that infection i just want to be with you angel.I hate the ppl who had a hand in us losing you our pride and joy
Iam so sorry Angel i pray you hear me and forgive me iam so sorry momma
i miss you so much yes i love life and i dont want it to be cut short because i have to raise your sister but what is life without you Angel?What do i Do? How do i live & enjoy life knowing the person i live and breath for is not here?
I dont know how other ppl are ok or how they can live everyday life without you here but your looking down on your sister mother and me
& you know no matter how many smiles or laughs and joke ive made nth changes the hurt i feel day in and day out because your not here. I know your in a better place but there no better place then being here with your family your mother father and sister
Everyday is a up hill battle for me i cant stop thinking about you, loving you & wanting the love a father gets from his child.Pain changes ppl and I've never been the type to judge anyone in any form.Pain changes ppl but it different if you are the reason for the pain not losing your child who was supposed to be born on a Friday but they wanted you to wait until Monday? Why? Why is my daughter here living life with her family.Angel Imani Chapman I love you with every pint of blood in my body and will never stop loving you even my dying day my last words 'I finally be able to spend my life with my princess
please continue to watch over your mom, sister & Grandma.Dad is ok I have nth but regrets & hurtful memories.The lil bit of peace life health and joy i had died with you.???????????? Please hear my call
Angel Imani Chapman
I never thought or
could ever imagine writing you a letter like this smfh my angel my babygirl.2 days ago would have been your first christmas.I havent and cant stop thinking about you ????????????
I love you and miss you so much i would give anything to hold you, kiss you and just hear you say daddy,Mentally ive been so depressed hurt & messed up from losing you that I no longer know what living life is or what it means.I lost myself along the way,i started not to care about the things that once made me happy.I really hate myself for being away from you while you were growing in mommy's belly
IF you needed anyone at the time of you growing it was me and i failed you.Everytime called you mom you would ball up like to say hey pops when you coming home and i would just smile and get of the phone and lock in my cell smile and hurt that i wasnt there ????????????
Baby ive been beating by police,
Lied too,lied on, told I was a danger to ppl and had 4 surgeries but nth hurt more then not knowing if i would be home to see you born and cut your cord just to lose you.
iam so sorry baby i really do hate myself for leaving you for not being with you everyday. I was part of the stress your mom had while carrying you but there was alot of funny things going on while I was away smfh and i wish everybody could see what i see ???????????? and see the truth about it
There's not a day that goes by that i dont think of you or talk about you
There are so many things I want and need to say to you.
IF I didn't have her your sister i would be right with you my ashes
Next to your my heart next to yours and mind ????????????
i layed in that hospital bed for days just waiting to be with you & your grandpa i layed in that bed seeing your face smiling & all i could do was hurt cry and beg God too please not let anybody so i had that infection i just want to be with you angel.I hate the ppl who had a hand in us losing you our pride and joy
Iam so sorry Angel i pray you hear me and forgive me iam so sorry momma
i miss you so much yes i love life and i dont want it to be cut short because i have to raise your sister but what is life without you Angel?What do i Do? How do i live & enjoy life knowing the person i live and breath for is not here?
I dont know how other ppl are ok or how they can live everyday life without you here but your looking down on your sister mother and me
& you know no matter how many smiles or laughs and joke ive made nth changes the hurt i feel day in and day out because your not here. I know your in a better place but there no better place then being here with your family your mother father and sister
Everyday is a up hill battle for me i cant stop thinking about you, loving you & wanting the love a father gets from his child.Pain changes ppl and I've never been the type to judge anyone in any form.Pain changes ppl but it different if you are the reason for the pain not losing your child who was supposed to be born on a Friday but they wanted you to wait until Monday? Why? Why is my daughter here living life with her family.Angel Imani Chapman I love you with every pint of blood in my body and will never stop loving you even my dying day my last words 'I finally be able to spend my life with my princess
please continue to watch over your mom, sister & Grandma.Dad is ok I have nth but regrets & hurtful memories.The lil bit of peace life health and joy i had died with you.???????????? Please hear my call