You really need to stop obsessing with this "prince charming" and sex all the time crap. Just making that 1 to 10 list is obvious you don't have your priorities straight. I am in no way trying to hurt your feelings, but I have read your blog for sometime now. You keep doing the same thing over and over and over and expecting a different result. I also think you need to look into some serious counseling. I think you need to get yourself straightened out before you consider anymore boyfriends. You might start whit trying to make some solid friends where sex is not involved at all. I do not believe in any way that you are some "piece of shit". But you do have some serious issues to get worked out. I wish you well.